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Sorting Out My Brain

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On Tuesday I am going to my GP to hopefully get a referral for a proper ASD* diagnosis.


This is a pretty big deal for me.


That I am probably ASD explains (but does NOT excuse) a bunch of my past behaviour, not least because the feelings and thought processes I was experiencing were massively at odds with what people were telling me they were (to reiterate: not an excuse, but something to allow my continuing to inprove as a person).  I am already taking proper ownership of those mistakes and I hope that a diagnosis will help me better understand my thought processes and how the way I communicate is interpreted by others.


There will be more when I have more to tell.


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*Autistic Spectrum Disorder

Today I have learned...

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That one response to one guy in which I call him for being a dick and mention the word privilege is 'liberal bullying'. Who knew?!

Man, sometimes the internet can really go fuck itself.

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Recently on Facebook I saw a post that basically boiled down to "The LRP awards are all about stroking the egos of a tiny elite" (the actual post was a lot more inflammatory than that, but that's by the by).

Ranty rantings...Collapse )


Jan. 27th, 2014

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  • A whole pile of projects I feel really positive about doing!

  • Weight loss and fitness gain!

  • Song writing!

  • Cognative Behavioural Therapy!

Life is good. Long may it continue this way.


Atomic Tangerine

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Check my blog, yo.

Shit is about to get real.


dead, dawn, zombie

So here are my aims for 2014...

  • Spend at least 30 minutes every day doing something creative.

  • Do more weights and thus lose more weight.

  • Spend more quality time with Iszy.

  • See more of Lizzie.

  • Continue increasing personal awesomeness.

  • Go to more gigs.

  • Play at least one gig.

  • Design my dream fuzz pedal.



humbug, bah
In 2013 I:

  • Made more effort to go to gigs, which only actually amounted to two gigs, but that was a 100% increase on 2012. I saw Astra supported by Purson, and Bongripper supported by Conan and War Wolf.

  • Improved my bass playing loads and bought my first ever 'big name' bass gear.

  • Finally met Lizzie and spent a lovely afternoon with her in Cardiff.

  • Was gainfully employed for the whole year.

  • Joined a union.

  • Bought tickets to my first ever festival (which is happening in 2014, but buying the tickets was still quite a big deal).

  • Got my first tattoo.

  • Got a new record player and bought a shedload of vinyl.

  • Lost weight.

  • Got fitter.

I decree that 2014 is going to be even awesomer.

No Regrets

humbug, bah

I used to spent a lot of time agonising over my mistakes. Nowadays I try not to. Those mistakes have shaped who I am today and so now I embrace them rather than wishing them away.


Nov. 30th, 2013

2013, NaNoWriMo
And so here it is, the last day of NaNoWriMo.

I have not won this year, not even remotely. With all the coffee in the world I somehow doubt I can write 27,000 words in six hours and not go batshit insane and develop severe RSI.

But I'm feeling okay with this - PROGRESS - I'm not convincing myself I'm a massive failure, nor am I giving up. In fact I've actually had a really good idea that makes the plot of last year's NaNo make a whole lot more sense and that's proving a lot easier to write than the story I started with this year because I already have a reasonably solid setting and I give a damn about the characters. This makes me a NaNoWriMo Rebel as I am writing stuff I had started before the 1st November 2013.

What I have learned this year:

  • I need to get better at setting aside quiet writing time in order that I actually keep writing.

  • I don't like writing contemporary fantasy anywhere near as much as I like reading it.

  • I find it a lot easier to engage and empathise with my characters if they are women.

  • A lack of horror and/or action makes me get bored with stories I am writing.

So... I'd best get back to writing. If I can break 25,000 words overall then at least I've got halfway there (woah-oh living on a prayer).

NaNoWriMo 2013

2013, NaNoWriMo

Well, it's nearly that time of year again folks! That time of year where I bore you all with daily posts about how many words I've written (plus other assorted stats).

This time, however, I will also post excerpts from my writing and I am asking for volunteers to read my drivelings wonderful prose post-NaNo so I can try to properly edit the thing afterwards.

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